Close Friendship (18 April 2005)
Yo whats up, today is my brother in christ Birthday wow. Man i didn't expect that is was his birthday today, and i didn't not buy him present. I felt guilty.
Today care group is about "Being United In The CareGroup". Well i felt bad when i heard that. Honesty i don't felt united sometime. I felt that it is like i go my way and other go their way. They told me this, "We should have a Close brother or Sister in the same unit especially in caregroup." Well that word i heard make me even worse. I felt hurt. Deep in my heart i felt like burning.
They had thought of coming out and even to keep us close. Well i don't think thats going to work. Close friendship doesn't come from any event we host. I feel that close friendship come according to God's plan. I think that i can't choose a person to be our close friend. Even if i choose, it's not going to work. Well this unit? Close friend? I dare not say much about this close friendship thingey. I dare not be open to them not even my C.L. or above.
I tried to be open to my shepherd, but i can't do it i don't know why. Well sometime i felt that i can't find my true self, i always try to pretend to be somebody else. Well i wish i can find my complete self. My brother in christ told me that it is ok to be somebody else, but make sure that person is following christ.
Well i actually, i been observing people life and how people charector and i am learning from them.
As i serve God, i believe by God's grace, he will reveal more of the true me.
Today care group is about "Being United In The CareGroup". Well i felt bad when i heard that. Honesty i don't felt united sometime. I felt that it is like i go my way and other go their way. They told me this, "We should have a Close brother or Sister in the same unit especially in caregroup." Well that word i heard make me even worse. I felt hurt. Deep in my heart i felt like burning.
They had thought of coming out and even to keep us close. Well i don't think thats going to work. Close friendship doesn't come from any event we host. I feel that close friendship come according to God's plan. I think that i can't choose a person to be our close friend. Even if i choose, it's not going to work. Well this unit? Close friend? I dare not say much about this close friendship thingey. I dare not be open to them not even my C.L. or above.
I tried to be open to my shepherd, but i can't do it i don't know why. Well sometime i felt that i can't find my true self, i always try to pretend to be somebody else. Well i wish i can find my complete self. My brother in christ told me that it is ok to be somebody else, but make sure that person is following christ.
Well i actually, i been observing people life and how people charector and i am learning from them.
As i serve God, i believe by God's grace, he will reveal more of the true me.