15 Dec 2005

14 Dec 2004

Wow today i woke up so late at about 11 plus almost 12. so boring nothing to do. Yeah there is something i need to do today is to pay my school fees. But i don't feel like going because i hate going all the way there just to pay school fees and come all the way home. I find it meaningless. Well, i called many people to do something after my time of paying my school fees, but everyone got there things to do.

Men this is sux. Well in the end i still need to pay my school fees because i dragged too long the actual date is on 14 Nov 2005 amazing i dragged till today 14 dec 2005. So i just go all the freaking way there, and i just took my Mrt back to Bishan where i live. Wow thank God that there were some North people there from my High school group doing survey. They were, Joseph(also known as Stanley) Brandon, David Ong, Shao Eeh, Joel(from high school group) Well i just join them doing survey. Guest what? We got none because it was holiday so couldn't find any high school students walking pass with their uniforms.

Then after that i meet my friend, "Sihan" then we planning watch movie called "King Kong" but we suddenly didn't watch because we were late for chatting with my High school group so we forgot the time. Well we still save money and having a good time chatting with my high school group brothers.

After that left with both of us the other companion was Sihan we were deciding what to do? We can't came out with any thing so i just tell him to come my house to play lan game like using 2 laptops, to connect and play with each others. Well we have quite a lots of fun together very long never experience this feeling already. We there will always be up and down roller coaster in life.

Well...Christmas is coming and i am so sad. Everyone is doing S.O.W while i have no contact to S.O.W with man this is pathetic. My heart are full of fears, fear that i'll be celebrating Christmas myself while everyone celebrate with their contact. And hatred, hatred against some of the brother and sister in the church. I felt cold. Yeah feeling discourage as always.

I felt like my heart is felt with problem which i don't know how to discribe it. This problems is always haunting my mind. I hate it i felt anger in my heart i can't fight it. It keep twisting my mind. I felt heat breaking. I can only pray that God is listening.

I feel so sick keep coughing all the time. Well i can only pass my sickness to God and let him handle it.